Love....

I am simply feeling jealous when i do get to some couples who hold on to their hands, hugging.. i did feel upset.. i can say most of my friends do have boyfriend. There are some of my friends took pictures with their boyfriends and upload it to their profiles. Trying to show they are in - relationship. I do envy them. I do wish to have one. I have many online friends who are male. Their age range is about 21 to 28 years old. I do chat with them and do too. I do chat with them normally, like introducing myself, interest and many others. As days passed, they will tell me they have interest in me. They say they love me, like me, like my character this and that. Some i have not viewed their picture of themself. How am i to love or like that person by chatting with them online. I just dont want to do the same mistakes that i have done when i was in Sec 2.

By chatting online, i may not know their true color, character, behavior, what they are and many other factors. I need to know these and to analyse them whether they are suitable for or not. I can't simply say "I love you". That is stupid. Recently, there are 4 men have "proposed" their love to me. I had to reject it. For now, i need to complete my studies. But i just can't tolerate couples hugging, romancing, kissing, holding and walking closely togather. They are making me jealous. It really hurts me alot. By this you may conclude that i am yearning for the word called "LOVE". That's true. I am yearning for love.

Will i get what i want???? :'(