Hurts...

I went through alot of hurts. Being hit here and there...
No matter where i go, all I had to hear the hurting words that people say about me. They sometimes talked bad behind my back. Who knows. I don't know but i did feel. All i had to do was to keep it to myself. People may forget what they say but i don't and i can't. Its all in my genes. I'm very sensitive to people who say bad about or even worst about me. I do feel hurt. I do have feelings. I guess they may not know that as they are heartless i can say, i don't know. Many people have told me that i am lazy, not doing housework, not cleaning up, not helping out my mother, not sweeping the floor, not drying my clothes and many others.. Yess., i'm indeed lazy pig. I always think that i am the prinecess in my house. But i dont expect people to serve me. I dont like that. I'm not super lazy.

I'm always using the computer. Not doing much of housework. I guess now you people will hate me. That's fine. Some people told me that they don't see any glow in my face. It's true. I asked my sister and she agreed with what other people told. I just don't know why i don't have the initiative to clean up my room or the house. Its all my laziness.... I wanted to pray, worship, read bible or even clean up but then something just made me to be lazy. Always end up myself in the computer surfing the net or downloading games or doing other things. Stupid me, i can say. Do u agree that im stupid, lazy bum and whatever you can call....

I guess i need to go for counselling. I need to cousult the counselor and ask the counselor to use the "Cognitive Behavior Therapy". This therapy could change my thinking and my behavior so that i could think better and behavior well so that i could achieve something in my life for better.
Cool huh? Alrite i'm going for it. If they can't treat me, tell them to admit me into IMH...
That's the end of my life i guess. Wahaha...I wish i could be there as a "paitient" instead being the one to give treatment.....

Better bring me there before i go mad... - im serious abt it....