Hi everyone.
I would like to introduce myself to u. I am Nisha here. U can also call me Eunice. I love to do alot of things like :
- Reading books
- Singing
- Surfing the net (most of the time)
- Listening to songs : English, Tamil and Christian Worship Songs
- Chatting with friends online
- Watching Tv
I love to go for shopping especially with my aunts and my sister. But due to my financial situtation in my family i am not able to go for shopping. Due to that my interest in going for shopping or for window shopping. As u know gals love to go for shopping and spend their money to pamper themselves.
About my family
I have a very big family. i have mom, dad, and 1 younger sister who is now studying in Sec 5. I have 5 aunts in total. 3 aunts are not married. My 2 other aunties are married and have a family on their own. One aunt who is married to my grandmother's brother. She had 3 daughters. One daughter had married and she has 2 daughters but my aunt's daughter who is my cousin is no longer with us. She commited suicide. She was mentally "sick". She was labelled as depressed but in the view of religious point, the devil made her to kill herself. My cousin did accept Christ as Lord and Saviour. But it just happened so fast.
My second cousin who is my aunt's second daughter got married to the husband of my 1st cousin. Now my 2nd cousin, her husband and their children are living togather. My last cousin sister is waiting to get married. I pray to God that she will get married and have children and have a family in her own. - That's 1st part of my family
My second aunt who is married have 3 children. They are studying. One in secondary school and the other two in primary school. They are really doing very well in their studies. I'm jealous because they are doing very well (better than me when i was in their age, i was doing badly). My aunt's husband is a drunkard. He just want money to drink. He is very lazy to work but expect the wife to give money to buy beer. I just don't know why he does not want to be responsible as father. Only bother about himself. Never think about his family. What kind of attitude he has? I can say he is not worthy. Useless fellow (Well i can't judge a person like tat. Who am i to say that?) - That's 2nd part of my family
Now it comes to my close family. I had 3 brothers. My 1st brother was born and everyone was so happy. He was born with the eye colour of blue (How beautiful it could be). Due to some reasons he was given a medication that would cure his eyes but it just destroyed his beautiful eyes. He cried and the pupil of both of his eyes was eaten and it became grey in colour. This is not fair.....He suffered through out his whole life. He could not see, could not talk like a normal kid but could talk some words espcially he called my name. When he gets angry, he would bite his hands or would bang his bed with a spanner and would make alot of noises. When he was 22 years old, he went to hydrabad with my parents and the following week he fallen sick. He was having dierroa. He had diebetics because he did not do any exercise his intake level of sugar was high. He had to go through the process of going for dialysis. His body needs a clean blood so that he can leave. But before all these happen, i pray to God that if i were to grow into an adult, start to have a life for myself, who is going to take care of my brother and my parents are getting old and i also need to take care of my own family. This was my prayer before he went to be with the Lord.
My 2unmarried aunts (A and K - name is not used for a purpose) went for the funeral. My sister and i was having exam at that time so we could not go and look my brother for the last time. I did not get the chance to see him. My parents were with him before and after his death. He passed away in India. My parents were there too. My aunt A told us that my brother looked handsome.. He had moustace growing, with ronalado's hairstyle. His face shrinked and he looked thin. (Wow, what a creation, i wish i could see him). He was very tall. He was about 6 feet tall. He was taller than my father. He looked like my grandfather when he was 24 years old. My brother was indeed handsome. He was the most favourite child and most loved by everyone and even God. He was a special child to everyone in my family.
Next comes my second brother. He was born after 2 years my 1st brother born but my second brother was a still -born baby (he born and died also called as premature death) and it happens to my 3rd brother too( he born 1 to 2 years after my 2nd brother born) My mom would tell me that both my brothers(still- born babies) were handsome too. They were fair and were looking gorgeous. All my 3 brothers are in the hands of the Lord. I just wish i could see them.
Next comes me, the fourth child for my mother. I was born in Chennai, India. In the month of Jan and the date was 4 in the year of 1989. In chinese calender, i was born in the year of dragon. I grew up in singapore. I was staying with my grandmother, grandfather, my 3 unmarried aunts. My grandmother (mom's mom) is really fond of me as i looked like her father. i loved my grandmother. She was the best. You will never find a person like her in the world. She was so dear to me and to her children. She took care of me very well. I am afraid of my grandfather but he was really nice person though he is very strict. I always wake up late. I was just a small kid. I remember he scolded me because i was sleeping too long and at times i wet on the bed. Usually small kids would tend to wet in their sleep on the bed. Most of all, he would buy me some biscuits in near-by shop also called as "Mama" shop. There were times i helped my grandmother to pack things for my grandfather during the period when my grandfather was admitted in the hospital. My grandmother and i went to shop togather to buy a sweater for my grandfather. Because he told that he was feeling cold. I remember that when my grandmother and i bought the sweater, it was a heavy downpour and accompanied with my grandmother. I helped her in many ways. I was just about 7 to 8 years old when i helped her. My grandfather was so pleased about what i did for her. My grandmother had went through for eye operation and though due to her eyesight she does not know what she is doing. So in order for her not to do any mistakes i helped her to sweep the floor, help her to iron the clothes, cut vegetables and packed some items in the bag.
There were once when someone delivered a sack of rice and placed in the kitchen. My grandmother was in the kitchen opened the sack of rice to cook rice for the day. So she opened and she accidently the sack of rice fall. And i think one quarter of the sack of rice spilled on the floor. So i helped my grandmother to pick up the rice and fill it back in the sack again. After i did that, i helped my grandmother to cut the vegetables. My grandfather was at home, when he heard the sound of the sack fell. He came to help us and he saw me that i was picking up the rice which was spilled. He helped to put the sack properly. When he saw me doing this, he was so pleased. I was a small kid and helping grandmother. He was feeling happy. I did not know that until now i realised that he loved me too.
I miss him alot. He was a smoker but he quit a long time after one of my aunts (or when my mom born), born (He had 6 children and my mom is the second child of his).He sometimes drinks 3 tins of beer. He loves to buy soft drinks like coca-cola, sprite, miranda, 7 - UP and buy a packet of peanuts. He would give me a share to eat the peanuts and few cups of coca - cola and the rest he will keep it in his room.
He tells me to eat the crust (brown side of the bread) but i only like to eat the white side of the bread and throw the crust. He told me that by eating the crust contains alot of good stuffs like minerals, vitamins and many others. I did not listen but somehow i learn to eat the whole bread.
When i was about 10 yrs old, in the month of Feb and the year of 1999 my grandfather left us and went to be with the Lord. It was on saturday. My 2 unmarried aunts, my grandmother and myself were were at home. One of my unmarried aunt went to work as she had half-day. Before she left for work, she spoke for some words and that was the last time she saw him alive. Then my grandfather took a bath and was getting ready. He freshened himself by spraying some talc powder on his body and getting ready for breakfast. At that time, my grandmother was prepraring breakfast for him. He took longer time as usual to come from the room. So when my grandmother went into the room to look out. My grandfather was there lying on the wall motionless. He was not injured at all. One of my aunt called for a doctor who was a block ahead of our house. The doctor arrived and inform that he died in his sleep.
My grandmother's world turn upside down. From the day since, she fell sick. On that same year, my aunt had a son who born in the month of december, in the year of 1999 and on the date of 9. He is the youngest and he is the only boy among my cousins....
In 7 Dec 2005, my grandmother went to be with the Lord. From the year of 2005, my grandmother was not herself. She was in her own world. She fell sick so badly. She could not walk properly. Her legs were getting weaker so she had sit on the wheel chair. She had stroke and was admitted to hospital. There was another time when she complaint of having very bad stomach pain. She was admitted again and was diagnosed for having colon cancer. It was the biggest shock everyone heard about it... It was also the year which is a very important year for me. It was my "N"-Level exam. I did really best for my exam. I wanted to tell my grandmother that i passed my "N" level exam. But i did not get to go to the Sec 5. I had to retain. Instead of retaining, i went on to Nitec in Electronics (WLAN) in ITE College East which is located near Tenah Merah Station. I studied there for 2 years. I really had a great time with my class mates and even had friends. I can't name them...too confidential.
I cried alot since my grandmother left us...at tat time before christmas day, i broke up with my boyfriend. It was jst online love. I have seen him on webcam and pic. I have not met him personally. He was a muslim guy. He was 2 yrs older than me. He was indeed handsome but due to some reasons we jst broke up. I was totally heart-broken. Now he has a girl friend who is now pursuing her studies to be a doctor. After she graduates, he is going to marry her...wow so good. Now he is running business. He is really doing gd in his work.
I jst miss him alot...i can't be thinking about him. He has his own life to think about. Once in a while i would chat with him.
There are alots of memories to share. They could be bad and even good too....Life is a learning journey...There could be alot of pitfalls we may fall, we must know how to get over it and continue to walk......
I will continue later about my world......
So see ya.....
