My darlings... - Part 1

I love to keep a pet at home. Whether a dog, cat or fish I love them. They are so adorable. I had many fishes as my pet. My first pet was given by my friend name Asha. She gave me two fighting fishes. One was in maroon colour and it was big and the other one was in blue in colour and it was smaller than the maroon colour. I loved the blue one the most and it was my favourite too so i name him as bluey as it is bluey. I was not sure what was the gender but i assume it's a boy. In my family, there are more girls than boys so i wish and wanted a male pet. I had this pet for few months. I remember it was on 2002. I took care of him very well. He was the darling for everyone in my family. The big fighting fish always bullied my bluey. Poor thing, he was bitten up. Few days later, my big maroon fighting fish died suddenly. Since then my bluey was so happy and was relieved from the big bully. I fed him with pet food.

At that same time i had other pets. There were goldfishes. I had 2 goldfishes and one Koi fish and some other small fishes. We wanted to place him with my other fishes so that he befriend them. I placed him in a bigger tank with my other fishes. He was the tiniest among them. There was a big "bully" and also called as "gangster" and also called as the "leader" - that was my Koi fish. All my other fishes were bullying him. I felt bad for him. His wings were bitten by them. His fins and fish tails were growing and he was becoming a beautiful fish. He could not take the current of the water as it was too strong for him. So we took him out of the tank and placed him his original home - that is his own small tank home.

There were once when i fell sick terribly. I was having high fever, headache, cough and flu. So i could not take care of my bluey. I kept my pet in a small fish tank which is compatible and can carry anywhere. His fish tank was placed on the dining table and i could directly see from where i could see him from my bed. As i was watching over from my bed, i saw my bluey stop swimming. My first thought was that my bluey was dead. But i just did not take so serious. My family members thought he was sleeping as usually you may not know fish will sleep. They may be floating. He did not float upside (when the fish is dead, it will float upside down). I asked my sister to take a look and she told me he is not dead but just sleeping. I went near to take a look and saw him floating. I tried to move him and there was no responds from him. And knew it was dead. I cried and we had to flush him in the toilet bowel. It heart-renching thing to do. The next day, my fever was gone and felt much better. I guess he sacrificed his life for me in order for me to be well. (if you don't believe i will tell you another incident)..

I had laohan fish. His name is Kimmy. He was given by my uncle. He was my second pet. I was very fond of him. I loved him very much. Can say he is like a dog. We placed the tank near to the door way. Before i go to school, i would wave good-bye to him and give him a kiss. He would swim until the end of the tank waved good-bye to me. (it is true, don't believe, it's your choice to believe or not).

I really miss him alot. As he is not with me anymore. Oh yah, let me go back to the story.

There was one incident that my grandmother and my aunt was about to go out to my relative's house. It was very windy and was about to rain. We don't like to go to that relative's house. On that day, my pet fish Kimmy was restless. It was jumping up and down, banging at every corner of the tank. It was trying to give signal not to go to my relative's house (There is one old lady there who does witchcraft, sort of - i donno know whether is it true or not). My grandmother and my aunt neglected what he was doing, thinking that he was doing a trick. After visiting my relative's house, my grandmother suddenly fall sick. We finally realised that he was trying to give signal from them going to that relative's house. Later, i gave him a kiss. He became shy and started to become blush.

I have got to tell you this. In the fish tank, we had kimmy (laohan fish), Koi fish (leader of the gang), goldfish and other fishes. We had partition between my laohan fish and my other fishes. Do you know fishes can communicate between? Have you seen? I have seen. Wahaha.... :D My aunt fet all my fishes with food and kimmy was given small fishes to eat (to last for the night). The next day, the small fishes for kimmy to eat was gone. I know what you are thinking that kimmy has eaten all the fish. No, you are wrong... After getting scolded from my aunt, kimmy became upset and the gang came up near to him and started to communicate with him and trying to console him. Especially the gang leader.

Let me tell you where have the fishes gone. It was on saturday, a day when my aunt, my sister and I would watch movie (only day they would telecast tamil movie - new ones). We fet them food and give kimmy small fishes to eat. As we were watching tv, we heard some noises from the tank. We secretly took a torchlight and shine upon them. There was the biggest shock we saw. It was not kimmy who ate all the small fishes. Poor boy..we scolded for him for no reason. It was the koi fish - the culprit, who was eating the fishes one by one when the small fishes swims to the other side. (the big gang's side) We later turn on the light to see what really had happened. Poor boy getting scolded.

Around year 2004 or 2005, one of my 3 aunts was in the room and my other 2 aunts, me, my sister and my grandmother were sleeping. All were sleeping except 1 aunt was not sleeping. She was praying and reading bible. She suddenly heard a sound. The sound came from Kimmy(my pet). She ignored. The next day when everyone woke up and i went to see Kimmy to wish him good morning. I saw one of his eyes was bloated. His eye was swollen. Do you know what had happened to him? He accidently hit himself at the motor. Poor Boy... There were lots of pain and i could sense the pain. He could see on the other eye. He became blind. I cried. When we feed him some food, he could not see properly. He had to be guided.

All my family members decided to give away or to put him in the lake (in chinese garden). My sister and i protested not to give him but we had no choice. My sister, one of my aunt, my mother and myself brought him togather with my other fishes like Koi and goldfishes. It was really a painstaking thing to do. My sister and I cried when we put them(espcially my Kimmy) in the lake. It started to rain too. I really miss him alot.

My Journey in 2008 - Part 2

Let's the continue....


A few weeks later, i was surfing the net to look for a new course to study for. My parents thought i would be going to Higher Nitec after completion of Nitec course. That is why they told me to work for 3 months as Admin Assistant. I just did not wish to pursue for Higher Nitec. I wanted to escape from doing NAFA Test or also called physical fitness test. I hate to do since primary 4. Because i became fat. hahah.... =D


I told them i wanted to do Diploma course. So that i can study the course and can get a better work and a better pay so that i could help my dad to stablise the financial status. I told to my parents that i want to do diploma course in counselling. They told me ok. Few weeks later in jun, as i was surfing the net. I went online to check my Hi5, Friendster and other profiles. I went to Hi5 profile and I received a message by this person name is Nanda. He told me to add him in yahoo messenger. I added him and i talked chatted with him. He told me that he was studying in singapore for Diploma in Tourism and Hospitality Mgnt in Auston University. He is 24. He is a srilankan. He worked part-time as a surveyor. I met him in 12 Jun 08. On that day there was a preview of the counselling course and i thought to meet him before i went for the preview. I told him to meet at 6pm. That was the first time i met him personally through online. He was the first person and the first male that i met and went out togather.


I and him shared many things and talked alot of things. He brought some photos and showed it to me but on that day i forgot to bring my photos. After about 45 mins talk, i told him that i am going for preview talk about the course. He asked me whether to follow me or to take a leave. I told him i was not sure then later told him why not follow me. He followed me and both of us attended the preview talk. It started at 7 and ended at 9:30pm. It was quite tiring. We both went took the MRT but he boarded down at Dhoby Ghuat station and i boarded down at Raffeles Place? He asked me a question : " Don't you feel upset that I am leaving now?" I replied no. But after he left i felt upset. I gave him a message that im feeling upset and why it happened so fast. From that day onwards i became close to him. I send him good night messages. I befriended him.


My second meeting with him was on that week on Saturday (14th Jun 08). I went to my aunts' house and take some of my pictures and my family photos. At about 2pm, i met him in Jurong East Mrt Station after his work. I went to library as i had to return books. We both went to the library and talked to him awhile. Then later we both went out together. I really did know where to go as i have never went out with anyone who is a total stranger. He was the 1st person. So togather with him took bus 198 and travelled on the bus and showed some of places as he has not been to. I showed places like ITE - Dover Campus, NUS, NTU, MOE building and went all the way to Bukit Merah.


As we were travelling, he told me that he likes me. I laughed and thought he was joking. He suddenly kissed on my hand. I was dumbfounded, shocked and became blushed. I asked why he did that. But he did not answer anything...Finally we reached at Bukit Merah Bus Interchange and got down from the bus. We both crossed the road and walked to the shops near to buy drinks as we felt thirsty. And later got a place to sit, settle down and relex and we both talked more...and he took a picture of me and put on his sunglasses... He did took a great picture of me... =D

At about 3 something about to reach 4pm, we decided to leave the place. On the way, he had a important call and he got down at the bus stop near the commonwealth station and i waved good bye to him and was heading back home. I felt upset..i just don't know why i felt like that. There were many thoughts going through my mind. I was confused whether is it love or infactuation or just affection but i just ignored. I have not felt this before in my life. I had many crushes in primary schools, secondary schools and even in ITE. I started to miss him alot. In the month of June, i went out 3 times with him. After one month in August on his birthday that falls on 6th Aug, i went to buy present for him. My sister, her friend and i went togather to choose a shoe for his birthday. On that day itself was my class for my diploma in counselling, so before going to class i met him and gave the present to him. He was so excited to open the present. I told him to open when he is at home but he insisted to open. I give in and told him to open the present. He really love the present. He thanked me for the present.


He asked whether to give me accompany or not and told him it's alright. On that day he and his friends moved their new rental house and cleaned up the place before he came. I told him to take rest and not to tire himself. After that i headed to somerset behind Centrepoint there is Starhub building, there it is my school.

On 23rd Jun 08, i met my friend Nanda and 24th Jun 08 I, my sister and my parents went to the school and talked to course counsultant. Her name is Elaine Goh. She talked about the course and told us that i need to take some bridging module in order to complete my diploma if not i will not able to receive or graduate from the course. I need to take 6 bridging module and would cost abt $1200 plus for the core modules would cost $4500 and in total it would be about $6k. My parents were surprised as it is alot of money. My course consultant suggested to take up a loan from the bank and can pay up later. We applied for the loan but it was rejected.
My parents did not want me to take this course. They told me it was too expensive and they don't wish that i should not be taking this course. They also said we can't afford to pay such a bid amount. I cried. At that time, my sister called my friend and he talked to me and i felt much better after talking to him. After a long wrestle, i cried and was standing firm and also was so stubborn to take this course. After i had some arguements with my parents they showed me green light. They told me that i could take up for this course. I thank God that they agreed to give me the green signal.

On 22 July 08, it was the first day in class for my counselling course. There were many students. There are intake batches of 5, 6 and 7. I was in intake batch 7. There were working adults, some graduated like me from ITE and some were graduated from "O" levels.

TO BE CONTINUED....

My 20th Birthday...

This year on 4th Jan was birthday. It fall on on sunday. I did realise that but then i thought it would be a normal day. On that day as usual i woke up in the morning, took my bath and start i get ready to go to church. The day before that was on 3rd Jan which was on saturday there was a service at G1. On that day there was a special speaker came from India. My aunts and I went togather for the service first. My sister told me she would come abit later. But i knew she was up to something. I knew she was about to go and buy a present for me. I did not know what was my present. On that day, i really had a great time. The sermon was really good. The next day was and will be the day i will never forget. On my birthday, there was holy communion. My aunts, my sister and myself all were seated in a row and worship the Lord. Happily worshiping the
Lord. I was overjoyed. I was jumping in joy.

I saw someone that you will never believe. I saw a person who look-alike my sister's friend. Oh my!!! I became too excited and all kinds of emotions was coming out. I was keep on looking at both person (look-alike) and the original one. There were some difference but i tell you, it was really amazing... I could not believe my eyes. I thought i was dreaming but i pinch my hand whether this is true or not..... This is unbelievable. I just can't take my eyes out from them. I heard that in the world there will be 7 people who will be look-alike. I'm really serious. I have seen many and they are one of them i saw. This is amazing. I just wish they could see each....

My sister and I became to excited, my sister called her friend to take a look at the look-alike but it was too late. The look-alike or the clone saw us being too excited. He came with his friend. He and his friend just walked quickly as if we are going to chase them. Hahaha.... =D
These happened after the service....hehehe...

Next comes the moment to open my presents given by my sister and my cell group. I will show you the pics. Take a look and you will know. They were very lovely things were bought for me as a present by my wonderful sister and i am thankful to have one like her....and my cell group bought a present too...

Here the pictures....(click the links below to check out)

http://http//www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=30260405&l=d1af4&id=1159343674
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=30260404&l=22ee3&id=1159343674

On that day i had to choose a cake. Usually birthday kid dont choose a cake. But in my case i chose the cake. Hahaha...It was the best cake i ever tasted. Yum Yum...i wonder when can i get to eat the same cake in the future...hmmm....On that day i get to cut 2 cakes. 1 with my aunts and the other with my parents...cool huh? 2 cakes....

I am always happy that God's blessing is there for me everyday. There is no doubt. I am happy for what i have and what i am...

Well let's see for my next year's birthday....21st Birthday.....
Will update more details in My World...

My Journey in 2008 - Part 1

Last year, it was the year of 2008. The year of rat in chinese calender. I completed and graduated from ITE. I was looking for something in that year. My father found a new job in VISC - it is a security firm he is working. My ex-boss was looking for Admin Assistant for his admin executive. So my father recommened me to work there. I agreed and started work on 19 Jan 08. This was my first working experience. I did learn a lot of things and start to learn and know how the outside world is all about. The outside world is too big and must know how to survive there. Without knowing, may end up of not being able to survive. With God's help, i manage it. It was fun at first. But later it out to become bitter. I start to hate my work there. They were trying to bully me by giving heavy load of work. They made me to work overtime but i was given little money. My basic salary was itself was $1000. I was in 3 months contract. During that time, there was a course going in church. The course is "Care for others". I did enjoy my time.





I did not like engineering. I like to work with people especially like counselling. I like to help people. So i decieded to go for the short course in church. It was from 7 to 10pm. It was held in G1 - Tanglin Rd. I really did enjoy the lessons. But at times i felt sleepy because i was tired. I rushed after work. Then i realised how hard and tiring. But thank God it was near as i was working in Bukit Merah. I just need to take a bus from there.



I get meet more people especially those who come for interview for the job as a security guard. There were many people. Many different types of character and personality. Too many to list. My ex-boss bullied me by asking me to photocopy some documents before the time i had to leave. I really hated when my collegues gave me extra work or last minute work. This went on for many days. Sometimes my ex-boss made me embarassed in front of people. I did cried in office. I endured and told myself it is just a learning process so don't cry.



I really had enough working there. I cried many days and nights. I really don't like to work. I told to my sister and to my aunts that my colluegues were taking advantage of me. They gave some encouraging words and I felt much after that day. I guess it was during in march, my boss and my executive were tell me to take security course so that they would give some assignments like extra work so that i could earn extra cash...I did not know it was a pit fall for me. I agreed and went for the course. The company paid for the course that I went. It was from 21st to 25th April. I was the youngest student in the class. All of my other classmates were older than me. There were 2 of the students and i were sent for the course by the company. The 2 students were to work as security guard and to go through for the course.

It was fun. I get to know more things. I learned how and what to do as a duty as a security guard. It was actually a tough job. When i went through for the course it was easy as i was in the classroom. But i tell u in reality and the truth is that being a security guard is not an easy job. You may think your job in the office is tough but i tell u working at post guard house is never a good job. You must appreciate of what kind of job they are going through. Especially those who are working for 12 hours. Don't ever treat them like a dog or untouchable. They are doing job to guard you and the building. They know how to safeguard you no matter what. If you see any security guard please smile at them and tell them a big "thank you". They will appreciate it. No matter whatever mood they are, don't neglect them as they are also a fellow humans or fellow man. They have more stress than you have, they get more scolding than you are.

Do you know why i said that? Because after the security course i was made to work as a security course. My boss and my colleugue told me that i will be doing a standby duty. I thought it would be a stand-by duty but they made me to work there for 5 days. My whole family became so angry about it. On 28th Apr 08, i took the practical test and i passed the test. The next day, i went to the office. They told me that they have assigned me a work from 2nd May to 6th May. I agreed and i went to work in woodlands industry area. I went for 1 day (on 2nd may). It was really a tough job. I worked for 12 hours. I really was tired. I really cried to go to work for the next day. I did not wish to go to work the next day and was not interested to work there. I purposely went to work late on 3rd May. My ex- GM called me in the morning (3rd May), i told him that i am not feeling and was trying to give him excuses but he wanted me to go come to work. On sunday (4th May), i was supposed to go to work and i did not want to miss going to church. So my aunts told me to go to church and just ignore the calls by my ex-GM. He tried calling me many times but i did not pick up the calls. My boss became very angry and i was afraid to call and talk to him about the issue that i was not interested to work there.

One of my colleuge (His name is Mr. Danny Tay), helped me by talking to my boss but it just did not help. I did not went to office to work on 5th May. My father told me to give a resignation letter but i refused to. But the company had send me a termination letter. After sending that, i was afraid that if they gave me such letter i would not be able to get a job forever and felt that i had a "criminal record" in working industry. What do you want me to do? I was so called as forced to work as a security guard. I did cried after that. My father was not happy of what i did. I can't expect to work with the job i hate to work. Will you work if you hate that job even though the salary is high. Money will come and go. Because i know God will provide me for what i ask.

WILL BE CONTINUED....

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My name is Nisha. Don't think i am muslim as it seems to be like one. I am born again christian. My parents are hindu.
I am still finding the truth who i am really.
I am person who loves to alot of things, Lots of dreams, disires in her heart. Sometimes will be in my own world. Love to admire the nature. The nature that God had created. I am very quiet person. I love to talk alot but i am scared at times. I am very stubborn person in nature and selfish.

After giving my life to Jesus, i start to be the person whom God wants me to be. He is moulding everyday to be a better person.

Life is a learning journey. There is no end to learning. I love to have alots of friends but due to my character people does not like me and try to avoid me. I donno know why...


At times i felt that what's the point to have so many friends? Where is it going to end when u have so many friends? Who will come n help me when i am in need and needed help...
Tell me who is going to help u huh???
I am telling u there is only one person who is ready to help u. He is Jesus Christ. He is Our Lord and Savior. Only He could save you by His grace and mercy so that you could enter the gates of heaven which is also called as God's Kingdom where you can seat beside Him.

My life..family..past memories...

Hi everyone.

I would like to introduce myself to u. I am Nisha here. U can also call me Eunice. I love to do alot of things like :

• Reading books


• Singing


• Surfing the net (most of the time)


• Listening to songs : English, Tamil and Christian Worship Songs


• Chatting with friends online


• Watching Tv

I love to go for shopping especially with my aunts and my sister. But due to my financial situtation in my family i am not able to go for shopping. Due to that my interest in going for shopping or for window shopping. As u know gals love to go for shopping and spend their money to pamper themselves.

About my family

I have a very big family. i have mom, dad, and 1 younger sister who is now studying in Sec 5. I have 5 aunts in total. 3 aunts are not married. My 2 other aunties are married and have a family on their own. One aunt who is married to my grandmother's brother. She had 3 daughters. One daughter had married and she has 2 daughters but my aunt's daughter who is my cousin is no longer with us. She commited suicide. She was mentally "sick". She was labelled as depressed but in the view of religious point, the devil made her to kill herself. My cousin did accept Christ as Lord and Saviour. But it just happened so fast.

My second cousin who is my aunt's second daughter got married to the husband of my 1st cousin. Now my 2nd cousin, her husband and their children are living togather. My last cousin sister is waiting to get married. I pray to God that she will get married and have children and have a family in her own. - That's 1st part of my family

My second aunt who is married have 3 children. They are studying. One in secondary school and the other two in primary school. They are really doing very well in their studies. I'm jealous because they are doing very well (better than me when i was in their age, i was doing badly). My aunt's husband is a drunkard. He just want money to drink. He is very lazy to work but expect the wife to give money to buy beer. I just don't know why he does not want to be responsible as father. Only bother about himself. Never think about his family. What kind of attitude he has? I can say he is not worthy. Useless fellow (Well i can't judge a person like tat. Who am i to say that?) - That's 2nd part of my family

Now it comes to my close family. I had 3 brothers. My 1st brother was born and everyone was so happy. He was born with the eye colour of blue (How beautiful it could be). Due to some reasons he was given a medication that would cure his eyes but it just destroyed his beautiful eyes. He cried and the pupil of both of his eyes was eaten and it became grey in colour. This is not fair.....He suffered through out his whole life. He could not see, could not talk like a normal kid but could talk some words espcially he called my name. When he gets angry, he would bite his hands or would bang his bed with a spanner and would make alot of noises. When he was 22 years old, he went to hydrabad with my parents and the following week he fallen sick. He was having dierroa. He had diebetics because he did not do any exercise his intake level of sugar was high. He had to go through the process of going for dialysis. His body needs a clean blood so that he can leave. But before all these happen, i pray to God that if i were to grow into an adult, start to have a life for myself, who is going to take care of my brother and my parents are getting old and i also need to take care of my own family. This was my prayer before he went to be with the Lord.

My 2unmarried aunts (A and K - name is not used for a purpose) went for the funeral. My sister and i was having exam at that time so we could not go and look my brother for the last time. I did not get the chance to see him. My parents were with him before and after his death. He passed away in India. My parents were there too. My aunt A told us that my brother looked handsome.. He had moustace growing, with ronalado's hairstyle. His face shrinked and he looked thin. (Wow, what a creation, i wish i could see him). He was very tall. He was about 6 feet tall. He was taller than my father. He looked like my grandfather when he was 24 years old. My brother was indeed handsome. He was the most favourite child and most loved by everyone and even God. He was a special child to everyone in my family.

Next comes my second brother. He was born after 2 years my 1st brother born but my second brother was a still -born baby (he born and died also called as premature death) and it happens to my 3rd brother too( he born 1 to 2 years after my 2nd brother born) My mom would tell me that both my brothers(still- born babies) were handsome too. They were fair and were looking gorgeous. All my 3 brothers are in the hands of the Lord. I just wish i could see them.

Next comes me, the fourth child for my mother. I was born in Chennai, India. In the month of Jan and the date was 4 in the year of 1989. In chinese calender, i was born in the year of dragon. I grew up in singapore. I was staying with my grandmother, grandfather, my 3 unmarried aunts. My grandmother (mom's mom) is really fond of me as i looked like her father. i loved my grandmother. She was the best. You will never find a person like her in the world. She was so dear to me and to her children. She took care of me very well. I am afraid of my grandfather but he was really nice person though he is very strict. I always wake up late. I was just a small kid. I remember he scolded me because i was sleeping too long and at times i wet on the bed. Usually small kids would tend to wet in their sleep on the bed. Most of all, he would buy me some biscuits in near-by shop also called as "Mama" shop. There were times i helped my grandmother to pack things for my grandfather during the period when my grandfather was admitted in the hospital. My grandmother and i went to shop togather to buy a sweater for my grandfather. Because he told that he was feeling cold. I remember that when my grandmother and i bought the sweater, it was a heavy downpour and accompanied with my grandmother. I helped her in many ways. I was just about 7 to 8 years old when i helped her. My grandfather was so pleased about what i did for her. My grandmother had went through for eye operation and though due to her eyesight she does not know what she is doing. So in order for her not to do any mistakes i helped her to sweep the floor, help her to iron the clothes, cut vegetables and packed some items in the bag.

There were once when someone delivered a sack of rice and placed in the kitchen. My grandmother was in the kitchen opened the sack of rice to cook rice for the day. So she opened and she accidently the sack of rice fall. And i think one quarter of the sack of rice spilled on the floor. So i helped my grandmother to pick up the rice and fill it back in the sack again. After i did that, i helped my grandmother to cut the vegetables. My grandfather was at home, when he heard the sound of the sack fell. He came to help us and he saw me that i was picking up the rice which was spilled. He helped to put the sack properly. When he saw me doing this, he was so pleased. I was a small kid and helping grandmother. He was feeling happy. I did not know that until now i realised that he loved me too.

I miss him alot. He was a smoker but he quit a long time after one of my aunts (or when my mom born), born (He had 6 children and my mom is the second child of his).He sometimes drinks 3 tins of beer. He loves to buy soft drinks like coca-cola, sprite, miranda, 7 - UP and buy a packet of peanuts. He would give me a share to eat the peanuts and few cups of coca - cola and the rest he will keep it in his room.

He tells me to eat the crust (brown side of the bread) but i only like to eat the white side of the bread and throw the crust. He told me that by eating the crust contains alot of good stuffs like minerals, vitamins and many others. I did not listen but somehow i learn to eat the whole bread.

When i was about 10 yrs old, in the month of Feb and the year of 1999 my grandfather left us and went to be with the Lord. It was on saturday. My 2 unmarried aunts, my grandmother and myself were were at home. One of my unmarried aunt went to work as she had half-day. Before she left for work, she spoke for some words and that was the last time she saw him alive. Then my grandfather took a bath and was getting ready. He freshened himself by spraying some talc powder on his body and getting ready for breakfast. At that time, my grandmother was prepraring breakfast for him. He took longer time as usual to come from the room. So when my grandmother went into the room to look out. My grandfather was there lying on the wall motionless. He was not injured at all. One of my aunt called for a doctor who was a block ahead of our house. The doctor arrived and inform that he died in his sleep.

My grandmother's world turn upside down. From the day since, she fell sick. On that same year, my aunt had a son who born in the month of december, in the year of 1999 and on the date of 9. He is the youngest and he is the only boy among my cousins....

In 7 Dec 2005, my grandmother went to be with the Lord. From the year of 2005, my grandmother was not herself. She was in her own world. She fell sick so badly. She could not walk properly. Her legs were getting weaker so she had sit on the wheel chair. She had stroke and was admitted to hospital. There was another time when she complaint of having very bad stomach pain. She was admitted again and was diagnosed for having colon cancer. It was the biggest shock everyone heard about it... It was also the year which is a very important year for me. It was my "N"-Level exam. I did really best for my exam. I wanted to tell my grandmother that i passed my "N" level exam. But i did not get to go to the Sec 5. I had to retain. Instead of retaining, i went on to Nitec in Electronics (WLAN) in ITE College East which is located near Tenah Merah Station. I studied there for 2 years. I really had a great time with my class mates and even had friends. I can't name them...too confidential.

I cried alot since my grandmother left us...at tat time before christmas day, i broke up with my boyfriend. It was jst online love. I have seen him on webcam and pic. I have not met him personally. He was a muslim guy. He was 2 yrs older than me. He was indeed handsome but due to some reasons we jst broke up. I was totally heart-broken. Now he has a girl friend who is now pursuing her studies to be a doctor. After she graduates, he is going to marry her...wow so good. Now he is running business. He is really doing gd in his work.

I jst miss him alot...i can't be thinking about him. He has his own life to think about. Once in a while i would chat with him.

There are alots of memories to share. They could be bad and even good too....Life is a learning journey...There could be alot of pitfalls we may fall, we must know how to get over it and continue to walk......

I will continue later about my world......

So see ya.....